Most of all

Haven't felt the urge to write in awhile but, the need to put my heart on paper has arrived. It's was sparked by a Man that too believes I was made for him and he for I.

I have experienced love on all levels and to various degrees, this being the highest.

With past encounters having prepared and educated me on how to except and recipricat.

Even with all still to learn about this, I am willing to follow his lead.

His presence over powers all others but, allows me to see the lessons taught. Giving me the ability to not only acknowledge but, thank all before him. Because without them I would be able to envelop him in myself and hold strong to the spirited fire that is him.

Not only is he a God fearing Man but he is human enough to admit that he is no where near perfect which means he is perfect for me. He sees and embraces my flaws because without them he couldn't nor would he love me.

My heart inhales his love
Engulfed in its rage, its fury, its tenacity
Over come by its warm, its grace, it humility
It's abundance out weighs the heaviest circumstance

Why shouldn't I.......

Anything I ask for he gives willingly
I want for nothing when I'm in his presence
All he says is "Ok Baby" and in a matter of time its done
He calls me his wife
He believes I should dress as such because my actions show that I am
So for him all I say is "Ok Baby" and begin to change my outward appearance for him
And why shouldn't I....

The jig is up

Dear you,
It's been a long road and while I traveled I met a lot of people. Some didn't stay long and have faded with time, others go and return with not much impact but, there are a few that have made such an impression that even in their absence they are remembered. Weather it be good or bad they hold a place in my head, my heart or, both.
I say this to you because you are apart of the few. I see traces of you in my movements. I still feel you coursing your way through my veins. The smallest thing brings back memories that I wish I could forget. The time spent with you was tragic..... Not that every moment was bad but, that unfortunately the bad superseded the good. The body natural instinct is to fight off any invasion of its space. So I have come to the conclusion that you were meant to be apart of me. You have given me the tools needed to fight of any attack that comes my way but you have also made me question love and that is when I say.... The Jig is Up.... Because I will not let you contaminant me with doubt, suspicion and mistrust. Your actions my have caused me to second guess my decisions but, they will not cause me to taint something so pure that only Allah himself could craft it. So be aware that I recognise your tricks and they will not foul up what is meant for me.