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I'm sitting here looking at this screen willing to spill all my feelings on to this post but, my heart is so full of emotion that i don't know where to begin and I'm not completely sure if it will end. I've been in and out of relationships since I was 15 and never has any man said to me what he has said to me tonight. It has always been my idea that they may have, may not have or, reluctantly gone along with. What I'm feeling right now sort of looks like this "ksfsjbgdfbvkbgoeughojbihgsjsguehfsjhr" but I understand and I'm almost sure he does to (which by the way is one more reason I love HIM). The things he may or may not do while not in my presence are not my concern nor will never dictate the way my heart urns for him when he is away. I can lay next to him, not speaking a word.... just breathing and be the happiest person that has ever been created. He touches parts of me that I gave others access to but, they never dared ventured and he beckons me to reveal more of myself to HIM. Its like standing at the edge of the pool, you know the water is cold as all hell but the person inside the pool is saying "it's OK trust me". And that's what I'm planning on doing.......trusting HIM